From Both Perspectives
Dear Loved Ones:
Stop asking yourself why,
For you’ll never understand;
The darkness felt inside,
I just needed God’s hand.
He is able to forgive me,
Now I ask you do the same;
I know your heart is hurting,
That was never my aim.
Please don’t say I was selfish,
This was the least selfish thing I could do;
I didn’t want to burden anyone,
Oh, the hell my mind has gone through.
You ask yourself how you could’ve helped,
Or what you could’ve said;
I assure you this wasn’t your battle to fight,
This was a war between my heart and my head.
You say nothing could be that bad,
I say not a single thing is good;
For me there was only one answer,
Understanding this, I wish you could.
I know it doesn’t make sense,
I know you think I’m wrong;
I know you would’ve helped me,
But we’re singing two different songs.
Your song is one of sorrow,
My song is one of joy;
My head is finally happy,
Although your heart, I did destroy.
Please try to be happy for me,
My soul can finally rest;
Remember all our good times,
Remember me at my best.
For those who have gone before me,
And those who will inevitably follow;
This has and will devastate your loved ones,
It’s a tough pill to swallow.
If you’re struggling like I was,
Know the test is multiple choice;
Don’t hide your tribulations,
Seek help. Use your voice.
If you’ve exhausted all options,
And don’t have a prayer handy;
Call up my friend (217-821-6590),
Her name is Mandy.
Love,
Your loved one
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Dear Friend:
I’ve been in your spot,
I’ve wanted to die;
I’ve asked for help,
I’ve told many a lie.
I’ve felt hopeless and lost,
I’ve been embarrassed and ashamed;
I’ve thought the loss of my life,
Would ultimately be my family’s gain.
I understand your frame of mind,
I understand your plan;
I understand your feelings,
Thinking you are less than.
I understand you want out,
I understand you want peace;
I understand you want nothing more,
Than for your pain to cease.
But I promise you this,
If you trust in the Lord;
You can make it through tonight,
And tomorrow… we will sing with sweet accord.
Love,
Mandy Jo
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