The End of an Era

Unfortunately this will most likely be my last blog post, at least on my personally owned site. As we’ve discussed in previous posts, my debt situation is significant, and while in the past I justified the cost of keeping my own website going, I don’t know if I can continue to do so. November 1 is my renewal date, and I will have to terminate my contract.

This doesn’t mean I won’t still be available to chat with anyone needing a little extra help. I will still blog/journal on my own, and am happy to share with anyone who wants to continue following my journey.

My journey is far from over. I am not cured, and I actually took a break from writing recently because I have had nothing positive to say. I have been very angry and bitter, and am working towards overcoming that. My mind is nonstop, over-analyzing every single event that takes place. I have been hurt and betrayed several times in the last couple months. I have been let down and let myself get defeated. I have failed others and failed myself.

I am still on a medication journey, working out my meds. We are still not there yet, but getting closer! Some days I have no anxiety, and others it’s cranked to the max. I feel very overwhelmed and have had a hard time balancing work responsibilities and home/life responsibilities. I have struggled. I am still struggling.

I recently got a tattoo as a daily reminder that mental illness is a battle, but God will get me through it. I didn’t get this tattoo for anyone but myself. I know my dad is not a fan, and a few others aren’t as well. And that’s really ok! I didn’t get it for them, and it’s easy to cover if you don’t like it. But I am able to look at it every single day and know I can do this.

I have enjoyed this blog so much, and even more so the feedback you have all given me. Whether it be the comments you posted, or the private texts/messages, not a single one went unappreciated. A huge shout-out to my college lab partner, Bre, for encouraging me to do this! It has been so amazing.

And with that, it just wouldn’t be me if I didn’t end this with some awesome, meaningful quote or something, so…

Tally-ho, dipsticks!