It’s going to be ok!

So after throwing myself out there and being completely vulnerable, I got responses I was not anticipating. My mind told me everyone will think you’re doing this for attention, I’d get a few nice comments from my family members, and I’d live to see another depressing day.

Boy was I wrong! I never imagined the outpouring of love and support I received. I honestly can’t say if I was more touched by the texts from those who mean the most to me, or the comments and messages from people that I didn’t even know cared.

I appreciated every single word that was said to me. I cried for almost six consecutive hours. I cried while writing my letter, I cried while rereading my letter, I cried reading my letter to Jake, I cried when my mom called to say she was proud of me, I cried when the first text message came in, I cried every time I received a Facebook notification that someone had liked, loved, or commented. I cried when I read the comments. I cried myself to sleep.

And then when I woke up… I felt like I had a new life. Everyone knew. I couldn’t go back now. How will people react? Shit, did I jump the gun? All my coworkers know now… and I have to go to work today!

And then… I received another Facebook notification. A college friend of mine had commented, “Dang, I missed your writing! I have always enjoyed you and who you are. I think you need to start a blog… I miss reading your thoughts: the good, the bad, and the ugly.”

Guess what? I missed my writing too! I’m not sure why I ever stopped. So Bre, thank you! I’m not saying that any other comment was less meaningful, but this one struck a chord. Now I don’t expect anyone to follow this blog, and for once I actually mean that. This blog is for me. This blog is for my thoughts. And maybe, if what I write is relatable and can help someone else, score one for both of us!

I have to tell myself every day: You are not alone. You are not the only person going through this. You aren’t the first and you most certainly will not be the last. Hang in there, we’ll get there!

Maybe you needed to hear that today too… and it’s going to be ok.