An Old Friend

I’ve deleted you from social media;I’ve erased you from my mind.But I can’t help but wonder;Do you sleep alright at night? Does the thought of how you hurt me,Ever come across your screen?I can’t help but doubt it;Because for narcissists that isn’t a thing. Any time your name comes...
Read More

Seeking to Understand

June is Pride Month and I am seeking to understand. Not judge, but understand. I am not anti-pride month, I am not a homophobe, and I am not discriminating, but I am trying to learn. What is offensive and what is acceptable? What lines cannot be crossed, what things...
Read More

Until It Ain’t

I’ve waited as long as I possibly could before pouring out my thoughts on more drama that took place within my mother’s family. I have since extricated myself from said family, so they will just be referred to as people I know going forward. Actually, I don’t even know...
Read More

From Both Perspectives

Dear Loved Ones: Stop asking yourself why,For you’ll never understand;The darkness felt inside,I just needed God’s hand. He is able to forgive me,Now I ask you do the same;I know your heart is hurting,That was never my aim. Please don’t say I was selfish,This was the least selfish thing...
Read More

Rest In Peace

Yesterday I was asked, “Do you ever regret posting the things you do?” Never. Often times I will write a blog late at night and wait until noon the next day before posting, just to make sure I’m ok saying what I’ve said. Sometimes I don’t wait and jump...
Read More

Embarrassing. (contains explicit content)

The last 24 hours have been hard. Very hard. I have felt worthless. I have felt heartbroken. I have felt anger; lots of anger. I have felt betrayed. I have been told by someone he hopes I lose my husband and two girls. I was told by another I...
Read More

Triggers

Anxiety triggers, depression triggers, intermittent explosive triggers… so many triggers! But today I want to talk about what triggers my anxiety. My office-mate and I have had several conversations about anxiety, and how it can be so different for some people and so similar for others. So what crazy...
Read More

Untitled.

Part I. I received an email informing me that an anonymous person submitted a letter on my behalf asking for my next year’s fees to be waived for my blog. Apparently, over the last two years, my blog had given them the courage to seek counseling and treatment for...
Read More

The End of an Era

Unfortunately this will most likely be my last blog post, at least on my personally owned site. As we’ve discussed in previous posts, my debt situation is significant, and while in the past I justified the cost of keeping my own website going, I don’t know if I can...
Read More

Due To Your Mental Health

It should come as no surprise why I was denied my reapplication for life insurance. The words, so coldly written, without a thought behind it: “your request has been denied due to your mental health.” Due to your mental health. Do you know what causes me stress, depression, and...
Read More