I understand there are people in this world who do not believe mental illness is a real thing. They think it is made up or perhaps even attention-seeking behavior. There are people who cannot empathize and some who just choose to not even try. They are the people who...

If I had a dollar for every time someone said they would’ve never guessed I was bipolar or depressed, I could pay off that manic-compulsive shopping spree I just went on last week. Depression isn’t external. Depression is internal. I will greet you with a smile, but it doesn’t...

Yesterday I saw a post that said, “I want to be holly and jolly, not stressy and depressy.” Amen! I really do want to enjoy the holidays, but I struggle. Hard. I want it to be perfect and there is just no such thing. I want the tree to...

It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything, and my thoughts are all over the map, bear with me. Let me recap some situations that show my progress (or lack thereof). To start, MJ’s birthday party. Why is there so much pressure on throwing an over-the-top kids birthday party? I...

One year. It has been one year since my very first session with my therapist and almost one year since I published my open letter to family and friends, acknowledging I needed help. Oh what a year it has been! My therapist has called me a “poster-child for EAP”...

In the past week I’ve had an overwhelming amount of people ask how I’m doing. I’m very thankful everyone is concerned and appreciate all the well wishes. I don’t mean to purposely not reply, but some hours are better than others and sometimes the literal effort it takes to...

Last night I took a class to refresh myself on breastfeeding/pumping. I did not do well with this my first go-around, in fact, I dried up/gave up after 5 short weeks. I was battling post-partum something fierce, and for me, at that time, bottle feeding was just a must....

With my due date slowly creeping up on me, I’ve been reflecting on my feelings towards this pregnancy and arrival of the new baby (especially after seeing her over the weekend via 4D/HD ultrasound- how cool that was). As you may recall, four months ago I was absolutely terrified...

It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged. It’s not that I haven’t had blog-worthy material to write, but it’s the fear of writing it. Most recently I’ve been dealing with a pretty dramatic situation that I somehow allowed myself to feel responsible for, when in fact, I am not. I...

My emotions this week have been nothing other than a hot mess. My coworkers reassure me I’m entitled to being a mess due to pregnancy hormones, and I think today I’m just going to have to accept it as that. Yesterday I had a meltdown over losing an umbrella....