Perfect is Boring

My mom asked me if I could tell her when I knew it was time to get help, or how I knew it was time to seek help. Let me be quite honest, I didn’t know. For years I’ve always thought there was something wrong with me, but I...
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Didn’t He Know?

*This is my first recorded manic episode, written in the deer blind. As silly as most of this will sound, it is what I go through, a lot.* Why today of all days I thought I could be independent. I decided that even though Jake couldn’t get off work...
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It’s going to be ok!

So after throwing myself out there and being completely vulnerable, I got responses I was not anticipating. My mind told me everyone will think you’re doing this for attention, I’d get a few nice comments from my family members, and I’d live to see another depressing day. Boy was...
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An open letter to my past… and my future:

I recently started seeking professional help for a whirlwind of emotions I cannot control. Turns out, I’m holding on to a lot of guilt about my past. The gambling, the drinking, the compulsive spending, the lying, the manic episodes… all of it. Now I’m going to make an educated...
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