Joy, from Disney/Pixar’s Inside Out (2015) It’s taken thirty-two years and a cancer diagnosis for me to find Joy; both figuratively and literally. It’s taken thirty-two years and a cancer diagnosis for me to appreciate the little things, and the really big things. It’s taken thirty-two years and a...

I ran into my dad’s cousin in the hall at work. It’s been almost a year since I’ve seen him. I immediately apologized for never returning his call back in December. He said he understood and all is good. He asked how I’ve been and I gave him the...

“Let people judge you. Let them misunderstand you. Let them gossip about you.  What they think of you isn’t your problem.  Their opinions do not pay your bills.  So no matter what they do or say… Never doubt your worth Or the beauty of your truth. You keep on...

I’m trying something new with my blog. I am currently trying to blog through a panic attack. For the last 6 years I’ve had what I (and my healthcare professional) call anxiety attacks. I guess I’ve always thought anxiety attacks and panic attacks were the same thing, but anxiety...

The Update I Don’t Want To Give… The History I Don’t Want To Recap… The Future I Don’t Want To Think About… Good morning, I’m writing you today with an indifferent heart. So many things have happened and are about to happen. While there is no “long story short”...

After my latest session with my therapist, he encouraged me to share my feelings on my own answer to “Why me?” This isn’t a Hallmark movie, and there isn’t any big revelation or inspiring message. That’s just not how my life works. We actually both agreed I’ve already had...

A chain of events has inspired today’s blog. While waiting in line at Marshall’s, the lady in front of me handed me a tiny little bag, with what I thought was going to be drugs, but turned out to be a mustard seed. Then I received a text/TokTok link...

After eight long, confusing months, I finally reached out to my former therapist who left me high and dry when he left ol SBL! He agreed to take me back on as a patient, through telehealth services, so I wouldn’t have to drive to his new, much farther away,...

Sometimes I have to remind myself of the strides I’ve made in my mental health journey. Especially now. While my cancer diagnosis has completely consumed my life, it didn’t erase my depression or anxiety. If anything, it made it worse. I am absolutely doing my best to stay positive...

Why do I? I want to remember this day. I need to remember this day. This day, was a hard day. A year from now, two years from now, twenty years from now, I need to remember this day. The day I decide if this is do or die....