Remember This.
Sometimes I have to remind myself of the strides I’ve made in my mental health journey. Especially now. While my cancer diagnosis has completely consumed my life, it didn’t erase my depression or anxiety. If anything, it made it worse. I am absolutely doing my best to stay positive...
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Why do you want this documented?
Why do I? I want to remember this day. I need to remember this day. This day, was a hard day. A year from now, two years from now, twenty years from now, I need to remember this day. The day I decide if this is do or die....
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An Old Friend
I’ve deleted you from social media;I’ve erased you from my mind.But I can’t help but wonder;Do you sleep alright at night? Does the thought of how you hurt me,Ever come across your screen?I can’t help but doubt it;Because for narcissists that isn’t a thing. Any time your name comes...
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Seeking to Understand
June is Pride Month and I am seeking to understand. Not judge, but understand. I am not anti-pride month, I am not a homophobe, and I am not discriminating, but I am trying to learn. What is offensive and what is acceptable? What lines cannot be crossed, what things...
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Until It Ain’t
I’ve waited as long as I possibly could before pouring out my thoughts on more drama that took place within my mother’s family. I have since extricated myself from said family, so they will just be referred to as people I know going forward. Actually, I don’t even know...
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From Both Perspectives
Dear Loved Ones: Stop asking yourself why,For you’ll never understand;The darkness felt inside,I just needed God’s hand. He is able to forgive me,Now I ask you do the same;I know your heart is hurting,That was never my aim. Please don’t say I was selfish,This was the least selfish thing...
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Rest In Peace
Yesterday I was asked, “Do you ever regret posting the things you do?” Never. Often times I will write a blog late at night and wait until noon the next day before posting, just to make sure I’m ok saying what I’ve said. Sometimes I don’t wait and jump...
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Embarrassing. (contains explicit content)
The last 24 hours have been hard. Very hard. I have felt worthless. I have felt heartbroken. I have felt anger; lots of anger. I have felt betrayed. I have been told by someone he hopes I lose my husband and two girls. I was told by another I...
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Triggers
Anxiety triggers, depression triggers, intermittent explosive triggers… so many triggers! But today I want to talk about what triggers my anxiety. My office-mate and I have had several conversations about anxiety, and how it can be so different for some people and so similar for others. So what crazy...
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